Justice

Here in America our legal system says you're supposed to be innocent until proven guilty. I look at Sarah's situation and wonder how many people have read her diary and automatically think she's guilty of those horrific murders. Yes, I've seen her videos and I know some of them make her look kinda crazy, but in my heart I know she must be innocent.

I ran across this story about some guys who were convicted of murdering some kids a long time ago and throughout their years in prison, they kept telling people they were innocent. They had movies made about them and still they sat in their jail cells, innocent men convicted. After more than a decade of fighting to prove their innocence, they were successful and are now free. There's a new movie coming out about their journey and the fact that whoever killed those boys is still out there.

Sarah's still out there too. I've always thought her story would make a good movie. So many questions remain unanswered, but there's so much in her diary, so many clues and history. Why not show the world her story? If nothing else, I bet it'd help us find her and that's really the point of all this.

I miss you Sarah. I know you still read this. I won't give up on you, I promise.

Missing Persons

Alerts for missing persons show up in my email once a week. It may sound weird, but it makes me feel productive to search over the news stories looking for clues, if not for Sarah for anyone who’s gone missing. Someone who’s already lost everyone with hardly anyone who cares to look for them, after they disappear themselves...

I look them over then read more from Sarah’s Diary: April 14, 1994 Jason scared me last night! He came into my room while I was sleeping and was just standing over me. I lay still, frozen with fear, because when I said his name he did not reply. He just turned around and whispered, “You shouldn't have come back.” Then he walked out of the room. I was too terrified to go back to sleep...

It was like Sarah felt she had nowhere to go after a while. How crappy to feel completely unwanted... I don’t think she would have gone so far as to... I don’t even want to think it much less type it. I still want to believe she just left; disappeared, figured something out and got far away from the insanity following her like a shadow... sometimes you could see it, sometimes you couldn’t, but it could show up at any time. That’s enough to drive anyone crazy and inspire them to run. I hope that’s what she did. I hope she didn't end up like in this drawing, or some of the people in my alerts... sometimes they are never found. I’m going to bed. Comment and tell me if you've seen any clues, every little thing helps.

Have You Ever...

...Felt like this?

My father and I got into an argument today about me spending so much time with Ericka or in my room. I’m sorry if I don’t fit into this perfect family, but what do they expect me to do-- sit and watch TV with them and tell them about my day? My dad said that I look like crap ever since I’ve been hanging around that girl, and that my attitude has changed. Maybe I just woke up to what bullshit this world is all about.

I've been rereading Sarah's Diary and this entry stood out. I remember feeling just like that -- I remember how my parents thought they knew everything, but they had no idea what was really going on in my life. They thought because they'd "been my age" that they understood... how could they understand what I was going through?

I knew Sarah. I was her best friend. I'm still looking for clues in her words. Have you felt like she did? Do you feel like she did? Please read her diary and tell me if you see any clues. We need to see through your eyes just like Sarah wants us to see through hers.